Life is to be Lived, not endured

As I sit in my family room on an unusually warm Sat morning and think on the blessings God’s given me over the years, I notice a trend.

I was blessed with a husband and then kids, when I was happy with a life just acting and directing.

I was blessed with a day job when I was finally happy staying home being a mom and doing intermittent acting/directing/producing gigs around the country for people who’d known me before.

I was blessed with an empty nest and the the chance to reconnect with my husband of 20 + years when I’d finally gotten used to having constant chaos in my home

I was blessed with insistent requests for me to return to the  industry I’d loved in the past, when I’d finally agreed in my spirit to  just let it all go.

I was blessed with meeting an honest producer and an honest writer producer, and an honest actor/producer,  a hard working manager brand new to my life, who are going all out to make projects they can work with me in.

A publicist I’ve known over 20 years, has come to me now wanting to work with me when, for the year since I’ve committed to return to the industry, I’ve been working on quiet deals.

HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN?

I think it must be in the letting go.

Not that I’ve stopped doing all I can to get out there and meet people, or  learn my craft better, or work hard to prove that I’m a team player.

I’ve just noticed when I hold on tightly to MY plans and what I want for MY life, things are just harder.

When I finally stop striving and appreciate the place I am in my life, Good things come to me.

I don’t think I’m unique in this.  I think thankfulness,  real appreciation, endeavoring to live a life that is loving and kind just opens windows that are closed otherwise.

I hope I can continue to be open to the future.

I hope I can continue to be grateful for the now

I hope I can let the past be where it is, learn from it, but not bring it with me.

I hope I keep learning.  Life is to be lived, not endured.